Fears

God takes away only as many of our fears as we give to Him!

Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in you. Ps. 56:3

Divorce

If you are thinking of separating from a spouse or getting a divorce. DON'T DO IT. It really sucks. Nothing seems to go right, because your favorite person is GONE! All those habits that perhaps annoyed you, or those characteristics that drove you crazy...well, everyone has them so get over it, you'll never find perfection (except in Christ). Go against the grain!

You know our media doesn't help out any. Television, celebreties, music, everything is against the family and against marriage. On the other side of the fence, nobody seems to have a problem with two people living together; it is the norm. Instant gratification. The philosophy seems to be, if you're not happy than it's not worth your time. Well, I DISAGREE! You see beauty takes time. A person doesn't become beautiful overnite! And a marriage, well a marriage isn't always beautiful, people do stupid things, say mean things, but be the Bigger person, grow up and forgive. God put you together for a reason, and He makes all things beautiful in His time (Ecc. 3:11). Ecclesiasties says seven times to enjoy your spouse, enjoy life and as a result you'll be happy.

I miss my husband more than anything. He is my best friend. My favorite thing used to be ending up in the same bed together after a long day. I always knew I could talk to him, tell him anything. Now I journal and pray, which is great too, but it's not the same. You know?

Don't be selfish. Stay true to the one you fell in love with, they may be really screwing up right now, but he/she will come around in time. I receive advice everyday like, "Well he must not have been worth it, just move on." Bullcrap. And where will that get me...Ten years down the road still filled with regret and pain, twenty pounds heavier, wrinkles from crinkled eyebrows rather than smiles and in a relationship with someone that I have to force myself to love. No thanks.

"Marriage is honorable among all and the bed undefiled." Hebrews 13:4a

Driven...

to my knees. Where else can I turn? I am lost in this sea. I cling to the only one who holds the key. Prayers are turned to praise. The prayer needs seem to multiply...so many requests...for family, for friends...so many...

Just one breath of air. Please. Just one answer, I pray.

Silence. Peace. Contentment. Jesus. I'm so glad He forgives and forgets. He is Awesome! There is always hope found in Him. I rejoice in this.

"The name of the LORD is a strong tower; The righteous runs into it and is safe." Proverbs 18:10

my little peace

Today I watched my neice, Sophia, who is nearly eight months. (Mom and Sister Lily had gone off to the airport to pick up Grammy.) After a good nap and bottle, Sophia needed a little snack. I reached for a baby biscuit, put on my shoes and we went out for a walk. The stroller wasn't in sight, so I decided to carry Sophia as she was a bit clingy.

While we walked, I experienced such a joy and a peace. Sophia gently lay her head on my heart and was calmly sucking on her biscuit as my heart melted inside. As we slowly strolled along, I looked up to the sky to thank God for her. The wind blowing through the trees seemed to respond by singing praises, "Great is Thy Faithfulness" and "Holy, holy, holy, the earth is filled with Thy glory!"

That was my little peace for today. Thank you, God.

well...

I'm going to GR today to help my sister find a place to live. Her radiator on her car cracked yesterday and she is without a car. :( She moves in three weeks...I can't believe I just got here and now she is leaving. So sad.

Well, we've got our coffee and a slue of excellent tunes so we should be golden. :)

Reflections

I have been blessed. As I reflect on this past summer before getting into gear for the school year, I am amazed at all that has taken place. From the fun things such as visiting family, blueberry picking, cedar point, swimming in Lake Michigan and reuniting with friends, to the necessary tasks such as moving.

Sometimes I ask God, "what now?" But there is one thing He's given me, that being my new job as a music teacher, and I think that's all He wants me to do right now in addition to being an aunt, sister, daughter, friend, etc... :)

Sometimes I explain to God that I've had enough pain and that I can't handle any more questions...but He doesn't seem to think so. All of His ways are a mystery, and I know that He wants me to fully rely on Him. It's character He's concerned about, not my comfort and He daily gives me the grace I need to live in His presence.

This years theme at school is "Created for a purpose," taken from Eph. 2:10, "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Isn't it wonderful to know that you and I have a purpose! To God be the glory.