Questions

I have recognized that one of my greatest strengths and my greatest weaknesses is my optimism. I know pain, but revealing it only welcomes weakness, a character trait innate to my gender yet fought with fierceness within my inner self. Will the pain ever disappear? How could I trust anyone ever again? I’ve been rejected by the one I’d become most vulnerable to. What kind of trust is that? I question my readiness to give and to love. How could I love another with deepest passion? Perhaps my love had become intoxicating and is still causing me to drive under the influence.

So many thoughts and questions and few answers. I look to the healer, my great physician, with longing eyes and a broken heart.